Feelings

I was married in my early twenties. So naive, if we were to compare with the girls nowadays. got my firstborn two years later. It was love at first sight. Everything was centered around him. Sleep was never enough. everything was a new experience. i would do anything to keep him safe. After that, came the second, third, fourth and finally the fifth. Suddenly, i became old emotionally. Nothing was about me. it was always the children. Everything else took a backseat.It was always about them, mainly financially. Money seem to be never enough. thankfully, we managed through all those years.

As time passes by, the children have grown up, the feelings of emptiness arouse inside me. Suddenly the longing of looking after them, pampering them and having them around me keep on tugging at my heartstrings. I miss singing for them at their bedtime and even miss them asking me for this and that. Now they seem to have a mind of their own but who can blame them! they are after all big girls and boys now.

Most of my time now is spend on shopping (mostly window shopping) with my friends, reading books, attending functions with my hubby and most of all, I get to laze around the house. the housework can be done at some other time, I deem fit to do.

Oh yes! i always look forward to Sundays. I love to read the Sunday Star. I would go to great lengths just to get my hands on it. I don't mind missing the weekdays daily but not the Sunday Star.

Such bliss! On the other hand, I am looking forward to having grandchildren! Hmm!! Not in the very near future yet. give me another four years, then I'm ready!!!